Until the End, This is Where We Begin

Ah ah ah

2007-01-04T03:03:36Z

I pretty much have the sickest tattoo.

End of story.

josh1389 @ 2006-10-26T15:31:00

2006-10-26T19:35:48Z

I need to change. There has to be change otherwise im not going anywhere in life. I don't know what I want to be when I get older. I need to figure it out. I didn't care. But now I do. Im going to change and get my priorities straight. Its going to be tough but I have to do it. There are some options that im looking at. Some people are convinced im not going to graduate. They don't believe I can change. "You have said that before and you never did". Well now I am. For sure. I need to start caring.

josh1389 @ 2006-10-18T02:12:00

2006-10-18T02:13:43Z

Im over everything. You have no idea.

josh1389 @ 2006-10-11T01:42:00

2006-10-11T01:53:54Z

So its been a while. Heres an update.

I flipped my car. Im ok. No scratches no burises. I went on a one week cruise. I was ok. I work at Haagen Dazs in the mall, its not a bad job.

So I have been doing alot of thinking about life and my personal life. At this point in time I don't want to grow up. I don't want to take on huge responsibilities. I can't handle them. I already fucked one thing up. Its bullshit. All here now is. "Hey have fun flipping your car?". Or "Im surprised your parents are letting you drive again." Fuck you. Thats life. Its not like I said to my self "Let me flip this car and see what I can cause." I wasn't doing anything wrong. I wasn't speeding. I wasn't driving wrecklessly. And I didn't get a ticket. So obviously I didn't do anything wrong. I tried avoiding something and I deserve this? Fuck karma. I lost hope in that. What the hell did I do to deserve that? With my life being inches away from death? I didn't do anything to get what I got. There isn't karma. I guess you can say I got lucky. Considering a few days ago this kid and seven of his friends got into a car for a midnight snack and crashed it and everyone is in critical condition and the driver died. So I'll just consider my self lucky. But to me there isn't karma.

Thats all for now.

P.S. Where your seatbelts. They save lives. Im talking from experience.

josh1389 @ 2006-08-06T01:20:00

2006-08-06T05:23:34Z

Maybe I should take my own advice from my previous entry and few days ago. You really need to find out your TRUE friends. The ones that aren't two-faced. And the ones that wont fuck you over to get what they want. Then act like they don't know what they did and act like nothing ever happened. Fuck that shit. Im pissed. Sorry. This entry was just for me. I need to type it out.

josh1389 @ 2006-07-31T05:28:00

2006-07-31T09:40:37Z

So as the summer comes to an end I came to a few realizations. People don't give a shit in this world. Keep your friends close. Your always going to have friends. But in situations your going to fine out who are your TRUE and REAL friends are. Don't always believe others and what they tell you. And in this world use your effing common sense I promise it will pay off in the end. Some people need to realize that the world isn't as pretty or perfect as they say it is. I mean obviously its not perfect because people wouldn't be offing each other in record numbers. Girls wouldn't be getting rapped or kidnapped and then killed. Your always going to have to watch your back and keep your eyes open. And no matter what you do fight back. Don't give in. But back to the friends part. There will be a situation in everyones life that they need someone to talk to at all hours of the day. And you need to be that person. You may tell everyone "Call me if you need me." Well Im that person who will pick the phone up at all hours of the night and will talk to you. But sometimes you need to ask yourself "Do I have someone I can call at all hours of the night?" Well I do. And those are your true friends. People that are there for you and who care about you. Well im starting to run out of things to say. So to some it all up.

1. Find out your TRUE and REAL friends are.
2. Use some common sense. It will get you far.
3. Watch your back.
4. Don't always believe what people tell you.

I think thats it.

Surprise!

2006-04-10T17:26:40Z

So I had a pretty good weekend. I went and spent the night a my friend Billy's then Saturday I had to go to Petsmart and gte a new bulb for my snake because his light went out. So when I got there they were haveing SPCA adoptions and there was a dog named Lightning so i instantly was attracted to him. And since I have Thunder at home I was like man I really want him. So after about and hour of persuasion on my dad we went back to Petsmart and adopted lightning. he is a mix of Dutch Sheperd and I think chow becasue he has a really curly tail and a black tongue. He is 7 1/2 months. I will get some pictures. thunder doesn't like Lightning much buch hopefully later on they will get along.

Well...Well.

2006-03-24T06:39:11Z

Im a little pissed off.I was reading some old entries and I realized that I had a really cool best friend. We did everything together. But this is the thing becasue we now have different intrests means we don't ahng out. What the fuck is that shit? Aren't best friend supposed to be friends for a very long time no matter how thing are changed? And now becasue we don't like the same music you blow the other person off? Im not having that at all. It bugs me and brings me sooo many memories back. There was 3 of us who did soooo many things together and now suddenly broke apart? Im still friends with one person but the other one is on his own. No calls no nothing. That is lame. I wish we were all friends like back in the day. Everyday after school we would hang out and be best friends. But that is all gone now. I don't know why but this is what it came down to. I may be sounding whiny but it just bugs me. Man those were the days.... To bad its very unlikely to happen again...

Word like a mo fucca!

2006-01-30T20:44:39Z

So as of last Wednesday I got hired at ColdStone Creamery. Im pretty happy about it. I get money now. Its not a hard job either. I work at the one off Providence and its in the same strip mall as Old Chicago. Im really happy about that. I work 5-8 today and tomorrow i work at 9-11. I have short hours im still training.

Long time no post.

2006-01-14T02:26:52Z

So yea I get my license in July. Im pretty happy about it. Not much has really happened. New calsees. Shitty. Yea but I would really appreciate if you guys could do this for me.

1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Place of residence:
4. What makes you happy:
5. What are you listening to now/have you listened to last:
6. Do you read my lj:
7. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/do you have a crush at the moment:
10. Favourite place to be:
11. Favourite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Best album of 2005:
14. Where would you take me/where would you like me to take you on a date:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A band, a song, and an album:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so i can tell you what I think of you:
4. A picture of yourself:

Oh and I need a girl friend pretty bad right now.

The Hell!?!

2005-11-04T02:20:13Z

So I jsut got done watching SAW 2. I have it on bootleg. That movies is effin amazing. SAW and SAW 2 are probably one of the best movies I have seen in a while. I recommend you guys watching them both. If you never seen SAW then see the first one before you see the second.

MAN!

2005-10-14T04:58:53Z

Hey guys. Haven't updated in a shit load of time. Um today is my birthday. I am now 16. U get my license in July though. But its cool. Umm Today I got the new iPod Nano. REALLY REALLY HAPPY! I have wanted an ipod forever. I wetn to Howl O Scream tonight. Thats was fun as hell. I went into most of the Haunted houses. Not that scary actually. Pretty sweet. Thats it for now. I expect some comments too. Please. I don't have any friends. So comment me please, it will make me feel important.

josh1389 @ 2005-08-21T15:01:00

2005-08-21T19:01:16Z

I hate myself

Leo!

2005-06-27T01:47:35Z

Well haven't updated in a while. Its cool though. Because Yesterday I got a snake. His name is Leo because he looks like a leopard. He is a sand boa. He stays underneath the san in his tank. He is really cool though. He is brown and a light orange color. He is pretty sweet. I'll see if I can get some pics up on here o show you guys how cool he is. My mom doesn't really like snakes but she fell in love with him. My dad doesn't like him that much so there fore he doesn't have to pay attention to it. My and Mike are his masters. We are teaching him the ways of:
Mischviousness = Mike
Burrowing(which he is doing pretty well at it already) = Mike
Killing = Me
Stealthyness = Me

He is doing pretty well. I mean he shouldn't even be learning this stuff until he is older. But I had to teach him the ways of which me and mike live our lives.

New Layout, motherfuckers.

2005-06-18T23:30:23Z

This is Ashley updating Josh's journal to let you all know about the amazing layout I did for him... GO LOOK NOW!

You're welcome, Joshy.

♣Ashley

SHIT!

2005-06-18T02:27:44Z

I was at Anthony's house and it was me Ian and Jeremy over there. Ian is watching the house then all of a sudden we hear a noise as if someone was trying to walk through the door so we froze. Then I waslked up nwith Ian to the door to see if we saw anyone. No one was there, they must have hauled ass. but before I left Ian and Jeremy hear a car keep driving around. Its not a good experience. We were pretty freaked out.

?????

2005-06-06T03:42:42Z

Im starting my job Tuesday. Im pretty stoaked because im getting paid $7.00 an hour. Im working at some health club in Harbour Island. One of the perks is I get to go swimming there and I get to use the workout equipment. Im excited! But I went to Adventure Island on Saturday with Jordan and met up with Chris. Jordan left at 3:30, so then it was just me and Chris. Then we got rained out and we couldn't swim. I could see and tell Chris was pretty pissed because he baught passes that day. But me and him will definatly go alot more and hopefully get Rantz to go too and Mike. Im getting a salt water fish tank. I can't wait. Its going to be pretty saweet. Well thats all for now. Here some lyrics.

Will you destroy the righteous with the wicked
Shine your mercy on but 50 men
Show me 10 yet worthy to see the sun again
Though you’re naught but dust and ash I will relent

Stand and be counted
Turn from these ruins
Run

Fire rains from the sky
The hand of justice falls
You spit in the face of one whose might is yet untold
Fire rains from the sky
The scales have tipped too far
A monument encased in ash naught but a grave

Where are these men that came to you this night
Bring them forth that we may know them
Be struck blind clear now a path for those I love
Await the brimstone that comes soon to fill your grave

Stand and be counted
Turn from these ruins
Run

Fire rains from the sky
The hand of justice falls
You spit in the face of one whose might is yet untold
Fire rains from the sky
The scales have tipped too far
A monument encased in ash naught but a grave

Whoa break it down

The stench of Sodom quenched in smoke and flame
Angels enraged bring judgment hence
Justice comes burning sear you from the face of the earth
Dead eyes raised to an ash choked sky

Stand and be counted
Turn from these ruins
Run

Fire rains from the sky
The hand of justice falls
You spit in the face of one whose might is yet untold
Fire rains from the sky
The scales have tipped too far
A monument encased in ash naught but a grave

I fucking loove the guitars on this song. Go to purevolume and check them out.

WHOA!

2005-06-01T02:49:45Z

On Sunday I saw SPENCER CHAMBERLIN! The new lead singer or UnderOath. I love that band. I went swimming where I wasn't supposed to. Oh well. I didn't get in that muc trouble. But I might be going to my friend Julie's house if I can get ride!. *COUGH*rantzandchris*COUGH*. Hopefully I can. I hope I get to go to the beach soon. For some reason I want to go to the beach bad. Anyways I love SUMMER. NO SCHOOL. Im a boring person.

~~Later~~

I thought you'd come back at least i prayed
the romance has been dead for years
but i've been too afraid to dig the grave
relief support never came
memories carry me through the day
of when we were kids
and angels came to watch us play
close my eyes just for tonight
the sun still sleeps and when she wakes
a movie that plays in my mind
remembring you helps me survive
every day a re-run of the next
i promised to stay by your side
that all would change i can't complain
another victim of the game
maybe love will find us again
for there is always tomorrow
sincerely till the end close my eyes
just for tonight the sun still sleeps
and when she wakes you'll be a memory

I love Chris.

2005-05-29T05:57:20Z

Hey guys. Its me. Not much happend except SCHOOL IS OUT! Yesss. I love it. Sofar I hung out wiht my friend Chris. He is pretty cool. We chillied with Rantz on the last of school all 3 of us hung out. Then the next days I hung out with Chris again. We went swimming. It was fun. Right now Mike is in my bed waiting for me....To get off the computer that is. Im at a lost for words. So I guess that is it. Please comment. Here are some lyrics.

these fingers so frail paint in my mind
scars down the back of my eyes
death walks with me alone tonight
the coldness whispers it's almost near
rest for soon it will be over
years flash before my and i understand why i'm here
no one will ever know, as the pictures come clear
don't worry they tell me this feeling won't last forever
voices beating their drums in my heart
the water looks so peaceful below and the struggle lets go
climbing over the wall of life's edge
leaving behind the smiles of yesterday
the light that shined has vanished to a grayscale of night
tears once present now look into the dryness inside
silent words enter the sky screamed
from this body as a reply, and these words begin to write
dear lord, if these break the earth
and enter your courts save me tonight
time is short and the hurt of death grows with every breath
here i am at the end
this wall that blocked you out for so long opens wide
and i begin to burn from the inside
i'll never forget that night
the night Jesus Christ made the blackness white

josh1389 @ 2005-05-16T21:10:00

2005-05-17T01:23:42Z

Well im just chillin. Not much happened. I got to see Adam yesterday which was cool because I haven't hung out with him in a while. It was me Mike and Adam. Yes! The Pack. We were outside walking for like 4 hours! It was intense. I mean we broke every single glass bottle in our sight. And also fluorescent light bulbs. Those things explode when you break them. Umm school is going decent. But whatever. Im getting my permit early summer. I wanna go to the Sounds of the Underground Tour. Rantz please let me catch a ride with you and possibly to the Warped Tour if you decide to go. That would be awesome. Well im going to leave with some lyrics that hit me close.

You are the teeth and lungs,
Biting back and breathing in.
Cracked like a frozen moon.
The heat lamp seeps into the pores.
This is your interrogatoin,
Your fingerprints betray your eyes.

Died on your honeymoon,
She made such a lovely bride.
Left the door unlocked for you.
The leeches took their turn.
Deny

Your alibi was painted by a blind politician.
Inside your swollen eyes,
sleeps a genius buried by miscalculations.

You are the teeth and lungs,
Biting back and breathing in.
Your love is homicide.
Your love is homicide.

You are the teeth and lungs,
Biting back and breathing in.
The queen is beckoning, get on your knees and beg for life.

You are the teeth and lungs,
Biting back and breathing in.
Your love is homicide.
Your love is homicide.

You are the teeth and lungs,
Biting back and breathing in.
The queen is beckoning, get on your knees and beg for life.

You will pay the price.
Close your eyes and die.
You will pay the price.
Close your eyes and die

Ok...Ok they don't hit me close but its a good song.

Everytime I update im going to put lyrics in them. I don't know why but I am.

josh1389 @ 2005-05-02T20:16:00

2005-05-03T00:20:14Z

Hey its been a while and nothing much has happened. Just went to Adventure Island With Mike and Met Jordan there on our long weekend. And Me Mike and Jordan made fun of some Austrailians. But anyways if you guys wouldn't mind can you guys put down a song that reminds you of me and how we met and a memory of us together.

Cough....Cough

2005-04-12T02:46:24Z

Man! I hate been sick all the time. I haven't went to school Friday or today. Its not looking to good tomorrow either. THe AtHeart concert was pretty sweet. They did real well.All the other badns were pretty good. Hopefully I get to see some of the other bands again along with AtHeart. But I have been bored out of my mind. It sucks. I need to get my permit soon. I got kicked out of Drivers Ed. Long story that I don't feel like typing. I really wanna get a band started. I already have a singer I think. Mike I need to hear you scream. And we have a drummer Adam and guitarist me. We need another guitarist and bassist. But anyways, I can't wait until Warped Tour its going to be pretty intense. Im going to see Yesterdays Rising, Atreyu, Avenged Sevenfold, The Bled, Bleeding Through, Underoath and some others. Im pretty stoked about it. There is an Underoath concert in April that I might want to go. There is also an It dies Today concert that I want to go to. Hopefully my mom will let me go. She let me go to a bar to see AtHeart but I was also with an adult and I don't think there will be any adults with me for those other concerts. Oh well. Thats all I can think of.

~~Later~~

Josh

Oh shit...

2005-04-06T19:26:48Z

Not much has been happening lately...I ahve just been chillin. Tonight im going to the AtHear concert it should be pretty sweet. School is going decent. Nothing special has happening. Thats it for now I will really try to up date more.

josh1389 @ 2005-03-26T17:41:00

2005-03-26T22:44:57Z

Well life has been pretty mean lately. I went to Adventure Island Monday with FAT ASS A.K.A Jordan Then i went to clearwater with FATASS and spent the night. well Josh is sitting behind me this is really Mike. Lets just say Josh is bein lazy and having me type his entry. He just sipped his soda all weird. Well were going to go

Later

Josh

Ouch my body!!

2005-03-13T04:45:23Z

01.Who are you, what's our relationship?

02. How and where did we meet?

03. What's my middle name?

04. How long have you known me?

05. Tell me one good thing about myself?

06. When you first saw me, what was your impression?

07. My favorite color?

08. i blow my candles on?

09. My favorite band at the moment?

10. Colour eyes?

11. Do I have any siblings?

12. Have you ever had a crush on me?

13. What's one of my favorite things to do?

14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?

15. Describe me in 3 words.

16. Name 5 things I love.

17. Do you think I'm good looking?

18. How would you describe me to someone?

19. Would you ever date me?

20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did.

21. What do you like most about me?

22. If we could spend a day together, what would we do?

23. Have we ever gotten in a fight?

24. Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?

25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

26. What do you think my weakness is?

27. Do you think I'll get married?

28. What makes me happy?

29. What makes me sad?

30. What reminds you of me?

31. If you could give me anything, what would it be?

32. When's the last time you saw me?

33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?

34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?

35. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?

37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?

38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?

39. Would you make a move on me?

40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day? This would be cool if you guys can do this of me. I don't have much contact with my friends

Well thats it... Cant wait until Tuesday and Wednesday those are exam days.

You know what that means HALF-DAYS!

More time in the house!...Whatever...My body is in alot of pain. But I ahve to go to school becuase I missed alot. I'll be fine because im a worrier. I fucking hate hit and runs!!!!!!!